Moment

Narayan dass {my mentor}"s secret powers were the most extraordinarily talked about things in benaras.I was doing the sadhna and was promoted to a higher level according to one of his disciples.But i wasn't feeling any Alladin s magic in my life.It was like reciting some phrses in sanskrit in the morning and sitting hours in the Samshan with half naked zombie like

Aghoris in mid night.

Once travelling via boat as by travelling on boat is much easier in Banaras and needless to say much more beautiful than the hu haa traffic mess in the city,i dared to ask him who is he exactly?.As many people see him in different colours and in diffrent wardrobes duty bounded for diffrent priorities.Some say he is a Sadhu,or a pain- in- the -neck perfectionist painter,a poet,a wonderful orater, a socialist,or as i see him as a hardcore hardliner AGHORI.

He smiled to my query and looked up in the sky mysteriously with long pause{which was irrestible for me} he surprise me by singing the most widely sunged lines of Adi shankeracharya

...."NA PUNAYAM NA PAAPAM NA SOKHAM NA DUKHAM CHIDA NAND ROOPAM SHIVOHUM SHIVOHUM"..........."NITYOHUM SUDHOHUM BUDHOHUM SHIVOHUM SHIVOHUM "{Neither the sin nor the pious karma.......not the pain and pleasure..........Iam chidanand SHIVA .........IAM timeless iam pure iam enlightened.....iam SHIVA".

                        This was perhaps the first time i heard him singing it was absoululty spell bounding.And somhow it strikes me in my hesrt,where my soul resides.I desire to be like him,PERFECT-IN-ALL-DIMENSION SUperMAN.

          Iwas burning with curiousity to ask him how he harmonises every segment of his life so effortlessly,just like strings of SITAR BY a great Sitarist..And how he gain powers,to heal a almost dead guy.Again out of bliss he said"I dont do it,its HE{SHIVA},HE is the KARTA PURUSH{THE ULTIMATE DOER},rest are mere details".

"WaH what a celestial Sunset," i ejaculated almost out of our boat in excitement to see the live painting of the ALMIGHTY.The reddish face of all day tired sun,surrounded by yellowish,pinkish aura,with clouds decorated on its head as a CROWN,was a unheared poetry in motion.

"Narayn ji,what is the most important requirement to b a self realised yogi,i mean what should we do,to be one with SHIVA?." I really dont know why i asked him this question ,instead of tantric ways to be rich and healthy.Anyways my subconscious must be curious,still his aura was becoming energetic enough to ignite the yogi in me,i guess.

He laughed again almost like a kindergardener,looked deep in my eyeswith his signature raised and twisted bowlike eyebrows and said "The same effort you need to do see the sunset".WHAT?

                                you mean no effort??i said."Then why people r so crazy of going to caves and meditating thier precious life on,to get the real "truth" of life.Is that all sadhna is useless,all in the name of Spirituality is nothing but decorated conmanship,all what we see in places like benaras is all ,but technically fraud?" i cant believe i said all this negative,distasteful spoil-the-moment thing.

To my surprise he remain like a Rock,uneffected,he didn't even reacted, but with the same methodical enthusiaism,reflected his wise eyes full of compassion."YES u r right my son, no effort, u need no effort to create a sunset, it just happen.But you have to be awake, be aware enough to witness the sunset,this requires sadhna.Be aware, be aware of your body, your mind, your thoughts, your heart beat, listen your heart beat, your blink.You do sadhna, meditation, chanting,there comes a mindless moment, a no -mind zone ,may be for a second or half,thats the starting point of self realization.Self realization, the epitome of Consciouness,the pinnacle of spirituality,the place beyond time and space,the bliss unexplained from centuries,the birthplace of BUDDHA,RAMA,JESUS in the unchecked caves of heart,my son".

            So just be aware, start from this moment,put your hand in Ganga,feel it,just feel it.The water its coldness on your finger.Feel this moment,aliveness of your body.Listen to your inner music, your breath.It says "so"when you inhale,"Hum" when you exhale.In SANSKRIT "SOHUM" means "i am that".

"Every moment is precious,every breath is precious,its a mantra, ajapajaap."

By the time he was speaking, i was absorbing his words, moreover his energy,all lost somewhere,may be closer to dhyan or samadhi,in bliss.I was aware of everything outside,the boat,the people,but can't open my intoxicated eyes,so blissful,so complete,it was."Every moment is SHIVA's moment"he said.Indeed i felt it.